ive been just so fucked up with this weightloss thing.

i got psycho about eating and realized i need to ease up. 

now i feel like im cheating too much.

my cheat days are only like 1,200-1500 cals.

but still UGHHHHHHH.

im getting nowhere.

i want to go on a fruit & veggie fast for 3 days but im supposed to go to a party & stay overnight saturday soooo that wont work.

i might not go

if i dont, im just going to be a hermit and eat apples and oranges.

fmlfmlfml getting nowhere

havent had time to exercise either. 

thinzilla › thinzilla

similar stats! i love this because it motivates me more for some reason.<3 Q

awesome (:

you motivate me, honestly !

ahh keep in touch please.

 A

taking a 1-2 week break from this blog

i actually think im driving myself insane with weightloss. 

time to re-evaluate my life.

bbl, stay fit. :*

I don’t know why I have the haunting desire to be with my ex boyfriend. So badly. And we’ve tried getting back together before. Now he’s dating his other ex of a year after me again and it’s just like blah. For some reason I think about him so much and want him so bad even though I think he cheated on me, he never told me he was smoking weed when we were dating way back when I was 15, even a few months ago when we were together and shmokin together he didn’t tell me he was doing some pills and occasionally coke until he got arrested for coke and weed, he asked me for money instead of taking me out like a gentleman should and hung out with his other ex behind my back. Why do I feel like this? Why the fuck do I want him? I secretly feel like we’re meant to be for some weirdass reason. This is always bringing me down, ugh :(

nofatonlythin › blowkissesnotboys

Watch Me Fade Away: what the fuck am i doing?

immafadeaway:

i’ve turned this whole thing into a task. it’s become ‘oh my god, losing weight is so hard, i must think consciously of avoiding food every minute of every day, but food is so difficult to avoid. it’s so tasty. oh there’s biscuits in the cupboard. i want to feel them crumbling in my mouth. i want…

Yessss holy shit this is exactly what’s been going through my head but I still dont know what to do. I would eat whatever the fuck I want and maintain my weight but when I cut it down to 1/3rd of my original intake, I don’t really lose weight..

Gained 1lb since last week. Pretty upset but I’m gonna say it’s because of muscle and move past it haha I do feel a difference in muscle from p90x though. Lowering my calorie intake to 700 now and doing more cardio

tomorrow’s meal plan

breakfast:  1/2 cup danon light & fit yogurt w/ apple. and a cup of tea. 55 cals.

lunch: an orange, an apple, a half of a bagel thin, 55 cal.

after school snack: edamame’s & an orange.  hopefully that’ll hold me over seeing as lunch is at 11:30 and dinner is usually at 7:30 :/ we’ll see.

dinner: what the ‘rents cook up, but a reasonable portion of course. (300 cal?)

after dinner snack: fiber bar. (120 cal)

(oranges & apples are negative calorie foods!)

girllivinghealthy › healthythingirl-deactivated2011